soooooo

where to start with today lolz

ok so it's the deadline of my payment para sa hinuhulugan kong bahay (downpayment). Mejo mag-5pm na so need to be there bago magclose ang cashier, eh hindi pa ako nakakapagwithdraw. pagdating ko sa atm, down ang BDO. kahit daw ibang atm terminal ang gamitin, waley. waley din daw online. over-the-counter lang ang pwede. syempre ang haba ng pila. 4:30 na. so major panic, ayoko ma-penalty. rush to my motor, sa isip ko oki kung ano nalang cash on hand ko yun nalang muna ibabayad ko. aligaga si siz, sana umabot. but then! hinahanap ko phone ko sa bag ko, di ko mahanap. oh well, baka naiwan ko sa bahay. how inconvenient. Paalis na ko to check back sa house kung nandun nga, and then yung nagwwalk towards my way na ate biglang nagka-horrified look on her face. tinuro nya kalsada, pagtingin ko, it's my phone! na nasagasaan ng kotse.

mygahd. ang lala ng cracks both front and back. feel ko pag tinanggal ko yung case magddisintegrate sya all. weirdly enough i dont feel devastated about it. as in i thought id be more devastated than i am? like... oh well eh yun yung nangyari. it's just superrr inconvenient. and at this time in my life pa na house poor ako hahah as in grepa talaga and need ko pa magmove out this week, so mag rrent pa muna ko ng house, syempre need ng down and deposit. hayss. sana ma-ok pa yung phone pero malala talaga lolz. two years palang yun and di pa nga fully paid :)) I really thought we'd have 8 years together wuw

turns out din na may grace period naman ang pagdownpayment, wala pang penalty if bukas ako magbayad. haha madaling-madali pa si sez. 

ayun anyway this day is a reminder that i need another bank lolz aaaand jusq wag na magwait til the last minute sa mga bagay-bagay :)))) haynaq self be carefulllll of ur stuff nkakaloka ka :)) actually im not even angry at myself, wow nagiimprove na ba ako sa emotional regulation? :)) or baka di pa talaga nagddawn on me.. oh well papelz tomorrow's another day to solve problems! :))) 

good night sa lahat ng mga di nakahulog ng phone!

soooooo

where to start with today lolz

ok so it's the deadline of my payment para sa hinuhulugan kong bahay (downpayment). Mejo mag-5pm na so need to be there bago magclose ang cashier, eh hindi pa ako nakakapagwithdraw. pagdating ko sa atm, down ang BDO. kahit daw ibang atm terminal ang gamitin, waley. waley din daw online. over-the-counter lang ang pwede. syempre ang haba ng pila. 4:30 na. so major panic, ayoko ma-penalty. rush to my motor, sa isip ko oki kung ano nalang cash on hand ko yun nalang muna ibabayad ko. aligaga si siz, sana umabot. but then! hinahanap ko phone ko sa bag ko, di ko mahanap. oh well, baka naiwan ko sa bahay. how inconvenient. Paalis na ko to check back sa house kung nandun nga, and then yung nagwwalk towards my way na ate biglang nagka-horrified look on her face. tinuro nya kalsada, pagtingin ko, it's my phone! na nasagasaan ng kotse.

mygahd. ang lala ng cracks both front and back. feel ko pag tinanggal ko yung case magddisintegrate sya all. weirdly enough i dont feel devastated about it. as in i thought id be more devastated than i am? like... oh well eh yun yung nangyari. it's just superrr inconvenient. and at this time in my life pa na house poor ako hahah as in grepa talaga and need ko pa magmove out this week, so mag rrent pa muna ko ng house, syempre need ng down and deposit. hayss. sana ma-ok pa yung phone pero malala talaga lolz. two years palang yun and di pa nga fully paid 

Just read my last post, and omg hahahha maling akala lang pala ako. He wasn't dating anybody and colleague lang yun and I misinterpreted the picture. He's always been honest naman so pinaniwalaan ko siya. So ayun, my ego is happy na hindi naman pala ako madaling mapalitan :))

In other news, I have to face the reality with the guy na sobrang delulu ako  - the barcejowa HAHA. itigil na ito self hindi talaga sustainable at mukhang hindi na rin talaga siya interested. Oh wellllll

Hayy I just want a good man who's hopelessly devoted to me :))

So I found out that he's dating someone already, less than 3 months after I ended things. Found out via tagged photo on his IG. I was gutted at first, then turned off, then used this info to message again my last request: that he delete our entire messenger convo (wherein may mga inappropriate photos ako hahahahah never again! wag tularan). So he responded naman and did what I wanted, so yay that's a win for me. That's 5 years worth of convo rin. Mej naauunfairan lang ako kasi bakit siya nakahanap agad HAHAHA. Anyway, I know naman we won't be happy together in the long term, that the company will be meh (best part lang talaga yung sex, but that won't last us years noh, realistically). :)) So that is that. Sana makahanap rin ako ng para sa kin

Sana magkita kami bago matapos ang taon. At sana siya na ang endgame ko

Universe please